If that's what you can call it. I know it could be worse. Much worse. But it's still not fair. I'm still mad. Very mad. I'm still sad. Very sad. I'm still...I don't know.
Unreal. I still can't fully comprehend the last few months. I honestly think if I went to Mom and Dad's house and he walked through the back door, took his work boots off, and hopped in the shower, I wouldn't think twice about it.
Gus insisted on having Papaw's picture on his nightstand. Bo has dreams about him and wakes up crying and screaming, "I miss Papaw!!". It takes forever to calm him down and get him back to sleep. He never remembers it the next morning.
Church is hard. Gus always sat in his lap while Papaw scratched his back. Gus reminds me of that. I can't stand it when they ask for all the men in the church to come up and sing. I want to scream.
I'm still mad. Very mad. I'm still sad. Very sad. I know it could be worse. Much worse. But it's still not fair.
The Tollesons
Barry, Brandi, Gus, Bo and baby on the way!
